Last night I went to the Marina to breathe and get last second clarity before the start of Ramadan. I think that its important to go into the month of Ramadan with a clear brain, no remorse, no questions, anger or sadness. You need to have a clear mind and look at all bad habits that you want to throw away. They said all bad habits need 21 days to loose. And I embark on this 30 day journey to let it all go.
An hour into of sitting at the Marina and looking at the calm waters approaching the rocks and feeling the light breeze on the top of my head from the open sunroof I felt the need to journal. I pulled out my journal unsure of what I was going to write but I automatically jumped into writing you a letter. My thoughts just fled out so easily, it was abnormal. I was able to write things that I'm unable to say to you without looking crazy or bitter. Don't get me wrong, nothing in my letter was rude or hurtful rather it was just honest and sometimes the truth hurts.
A year ago today I didn't think that I would be here today but the lucidity of what I got off my chest, mind and emotions I can think a little comprehensible. At first I wanted to blame myself for letting you in then I wanted to blame you for hurting me but you know what, bottom line is that everything that happens in our lives is meant to be placed there, nothing happens by accident. We need to place ourselves in such positions to get better understandings of ourselves and to learn life messages.
Writing a letter allowed me to let go of it all, things that I've wanted to say but felt like it was unneeded but hey at least I was able to release it from my brain. Oh the wonders of being an over-thinker. As I embark on my journey of Ramadan I forgive you for hurting me, I hold no grudges or remorse. You will always be my person and I am fine with letting you go; the only part of my letter that I will share:: I think I loved you, and with that love I am letting you go back into the world in which you came to me from. Thank you for the feelings you gave me and for taking me out of my shell more than you will ever know.
Last night I went to the Marina and got clarity, and I'm so into the realm of new beginnings and prosperity. Ramadan Kareem!
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